SEASONS + BIPOLAR + ME

 

me + Cynthia

When the seasons change I feel a sort of boost. Bipolar is cyclic, and I have noticed that when there is a change (whether real or perceived) I tend to feel a low level mania. Fortunately, I am attuned to my moods after years of learning how to recognize them so it rarely turns to true mania. 

I think part of it is the excitement of something new. While my Bipolar is best managed with routine, it is nice to shake things up. The changing of the seasons doesn't really mean a whole lot here in the desert which is disappointing, but it does mean that the hot weather which tends to make me physically ill is on it's way out. This means more time outside and more time with my animals which always lifts my soul. 

I have no idea if this is something that other people diagnosed with Bipolar notice or deal with, but the change from summer to autumn is an especially strong one for me. And again, I think it's partially because my autoimmune disorders have caused me to be sensitive to heat. So in addition to my mental changes I am excited to not feel sick everyday because of the temperature. 

Anyway, I'm very excited for this change in seasons. Very much looking forward to fall.