Showing posts with label friendships. Show all posts
Showing posts with label friendships. Show all posts

Sunday, May 12, 2024

FRIENDSHIP FUNERAL

 

I recently made the decision to stop being friends with a group of people after I realized their behavior was not one time flukes and that their whole vibe just didn't mesh with what I want in my life. 

I had stopped being involved with them in business for a multitude of reasons including differences of opinion on how things should be done involving horse care. Then I started finding out some of the shady practices that I felt were unethical, and some that I was sure were illegal. I did not want to be involved, so I left the partnership. 

After I left the business partnership, I found that the friendship fizzled. Suddenly, once I could no longer benefit them they didn't talk to me...and if I reached out the conversation was stifled. Plans were made and never followed through on. Meanwhile, I was struggling seeing all of their social media posts because I knew they were all fake. I knew the behind the scenes, and it made me feel gross. 

So I did what anyone should do if they don't like what someone is posting on social media, and I unfollowed and unfriended them. 

Immediately following that I began to get a TON of messages on multiple social media platforms from fake looking accounts telling me I better not talk about these businesses or I'd regret it. *cue confused look* I also got messages from people we knew mutually asking me what happened with me leaving the businesses and why they would be getting messages telling them I'm untrustworthy and not to believe anything I say. I was pretty confused by all of this because I never said anything bad about them or posted anything negative, yet they apparently felt the need to say negative things about me? 

It feels weird to grieve the loss of friendships that were never real, but I got my hopes up and felt that these were real. Maybe it hurts even more to realize that the whole thing was one sided. I don't know. 





Tuesday, April 9, 2024

IN WHICH I UPDATE Y'ALL ON MY LIFE

 

It's been awhile. 

I've been really focused on some things that were taking up all my time and energy, but there have been some changes which makes me hopeful that my goals will get back on track. 

First of all, this cutest little thing was born. Her first name that I tried out was Fauna, but it doesn't quite fit her...so we are back to the drawing board. She's pretty darn adorable, and I 100% do not mind her taking up a bunch of my time. 

I've been prepping to launch two new little businesses via my farm. Warmest Regards which will be hand spun yarn! Eventually I hope to have my own sheep or alpacas to spin with, but for now I'm learning to spin and dye these things. It should be super fun. The other is The Midnight Hippie which is a self care product shop made with farm fresh ingredients, like goats milk from my Nigerian Dwarf herd of dairy goats and honey from my hive. I also still have Neon Daisy Co. of course. (click the title of any shop to find it online)

I'm also making moves to upgrade my horse life. Follow that journey here. Click here!

One of the things I had to give up was partnering with my friend, Erin for the farm school. Although I loved having a job focused on horses, my heart is not in teaching beginners. And as a fledgling business, it required a large time commitment. Being that I live an hour away from the farm where the school is hosted it was just too much of a time commitment for me, and it was taking away from my own farm. Everyone seems to want the tea on my leaving Sonoran Daisy, so that's it. 

No big fight. Erin and I are still friends. I adore her. I adore her kids. There was no drama. Just a decision between the two of us to do what was best for me, for her, and for the school and for my farm. 

I've been slowly working on all my works in progress. The meNoir is coming along, but I'll be honest I have to work on that one slowly because it tends to release a lot of trauma. For my own mental health, that one is taking as long as it takes. Now my Lucifer book, that one is just pouring out. I can picture those characters so vividly that they just sort of write the story themselves. I'm so excited for this one. My necromancer story is on hold for a bit. I'm working some things out with the magic system, plus Lucifer is taking up all of my brain. 

What have y'all been up to?



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